To my first companion -
Dear Elder -
You may have been surprised when you got to the MTC in Brazil, and found out that you did not have a companion, and had to be re-assigned. I don't know if you ended up being a "solo" missionary, or if you were re-assigned to a three-way companionship, or if it was such a smooth transition that you did not even know you missed me as a companion. I truly hope it was the last one, and that my absence in no way impacted your ability to learn to share The Gospel. I apologize for missing out on the spiritual experiences we could have shared, for the insight we could have gained from each other, and for the friendship we would have shared. Nothing I can do would ever make up for that difference in our lives.
To my subsequent potential companions -
I truly hope that your mission was not impacted by my absence. I was told in blessings that you would not be, and I trust The Lord that is the case. Either way, I am truly sorry for my absence. It was completely my fault, and I apologize for my actions which could have impacted you negatively.
To the people of Joao Pessoa -
It will always sadden me that I was not able to go and serve in your area. I wanted to; I wished I could; and I worked as hard as I could to get there. Ultimately, my bad decisions made it so I did not ever go. I hope to be able to serve, hopefully in your area, if not; somewhere else. I truly hope that the missionaries that replaced me served even better than I would have. I pray that the gospel will have spread, and filled your hearts as I would have worked hard to do. I'm sorry.
These may seem out of character for this blog; they may not; I don't know. All I know is that I felt a need to do this. If I have harmed, hurt, or otherwise affected you in a negative way; your apology is coming.
Don't worry; I'm not dying or anything... just working to be a better, more Christlike person by repairing all of the wrongs that I possibly can, and let God take the rest.
I say this in the name of Jesus Christ; Amen.
